Greg and I will be moving to the DFW area in Texas. Greg leaves this Thursday and I will follow in another month or so. Brie just got home from her mission and needs some tome to get settled. We need to get her a car and job! She is planning on moving in with Caden and Amy in Centerville for awhile while she gets oriented. Bryn moved in with Bryson in Kaysville, and Austin is still here on AF with his cousins. So that means that for the first time since we had children, we will be moving alone! It's not really the moving tht worries me, we've done it so many times, however, leaving our kids and families behind feels weird., not wrong, but weird! Talk about empty nesting... we seem to be the one's taking flight!
I really don't think I have let myself really dwell on thoughts of leaving. Both Greg and I have parents that may not be with us for much longer, and we just got Brie home from her 18 month mission. I have gone back and forth with the timing of this change, however, /i do feel like it is the right thing for us to do. HArd for sure, but an answer to prayers as well. We are moving for a job opportunity. I'm so thankful Greg has found one that will help us prepare for the future better than we have previously been able to. Being self employed has been so hard. Money is always tight and niether of us has been good about saving or investing, just surviving, which is not sustainable, especially at our age. We are praying this job can help us get out of debt and provide some stability and that we can save for retirement. Also prayiing we will be lead to where we are needed by the Lord.
A huge part of me wishes we could just pack a few bags to move and start over! The thought of packing and moving is daunting! We've done it so many times, but we are truly getting to old for this stuff. I guess the silver lining is getting rid of all the excess!
Totally swithching lanes here, but this year we are studying the Old Testament and something said this morning that was in the Come Follow Him Manual stood out to me. "Because the world around us is so beautiful and majestic, it’s hard to imagine the earth when it was “without form, and void” and “empty and desolate” (Genesis 1:2; Abraham 4:2). One thing the Creation story teaches us is that God can, over time, make something magnificent out of something unorganized. That’s helpful to remember when life seems chaotic. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are Creators, and Their creative work with us is not finished. They can make light shine in dark moments in our lives. They can fill our emptiness with life. They can transform us into the divine beings we were meant to be. That’s what it means to be created in God’s image, after His likeness (see Genesis 1:26). We have the potential to become like Him: exalted, glorified, heavenly." I really needed to hear that. My life feels so chaotic to me right now., being reminded that it is all part of the process, and I have the Ultimate Creators ready and willing to help me with my mess is comforting. They are here to help organize, to strengthen, to filter the good better and best and to hold me up
through the whole crazy chaotic struggle. and process in becoming who I am meant to be.
Another thought I have had recurringly is that it's not too late to study and learn anything that I really want to learn. I often tell myself that there is no point in it att my age, how will I ever use it... I realized recently how silly and naive that was of me. We are eternal beings and all that we do take with us is our knowledge, testimonies and talents. How crazy to limit myself according to what I will use in this life. Anyway, I am planning to take that to heart when I get settled in Texas. I have many things I'd like to learn and focus on.
Tomorrow is a day off! That makes me so happy! I will sign off for tonight by saying how truly grateful I am for my Savior Jesus Christ and His gospel on the earth today. I know I am loved and looked after and that makes all the difference.
